It's 9.07am, we are late as always, the class is about to begin...
I was thinking just now when I was sharing my MM assignment with Daniel, I was reserved in sharing my MM stuffs with him, in front of others, Like do i really need to? It made me look like a crooks, distrustful, this type of behavior is the one that made me a hateful person. I need to take note.
Plus I told myself I need to fix my fundamental, like the sheets in the wall that do not hold itself unlike the others, I was the one who paste the sticko. It tells me something.
Yet, why must I worry about this anyway? Y must I think about how others gonna think about me? It was never a hard and fast rule. It was never straigtforward, it was always vague. I just have to believe in myself, that whatever i do is right.
At the end of the day i want to achieve success that are as good if not better than others. That's my main fundamental flaw in my life :(
Back to class...
I think I am going to learn chinese language with the ppstream.com, entertainment speeds up learning....
I think in order for me to really appreciate this course is to think like a novelist. I still need to know the basic facts about Latin America, but at the same time i could fabricate stories. I will open my eyes and wll not boil over today. I promise, or I'll pay RM100 this time.
I can control myself but i need to remind myself.
I always believe I am smarter than others, now I am redeemed, thanks to my exoursemate humility to ask this question.
Taking off my specs seem to work, I am more focused on my thinking rather being influenced by the outer world. I guess i do not have a boundary to protect myself from the outside world
See I asked the question before even it was raised and done, am i not smart and think ahead of stuffs? See I really smart.
So far so good, my team work still good, see I am a teamplayer!! C'mon, fuck the loser who do not think so.
"Maybe I will understand better if you have express it differently" this is the line came out by RB when the class came out with some question that is totally out in inexplicable. Another of saying "I dun think u understand what you do, and better get your baisc right pls" Riles me up u know!!
I am struggling with coming out the red paper. Hmmm, I think I might have not enough articulation on it. WOuld it mean that I might be too general in my clustering? But I would come out with hundreds of clusters!! Hmmm. Let me think.
I think my red paper are too specific and I am not telling enough stories. We are not general enough in the stories. The way I did was a bit shallow. I need to tell more stories.
I can tell RB is an antiestablishment, he is for scotland independence, he's story about security in 10pm, "I can imagine a U without security officer, can u imagine a U without academy?", He probably get this U because he's all about endpoint, I am just like him.
"the imam with cat, daily imam bring cat and tie to post before "
"you need to keep asking question of what purpose of the business because of memory loss"
I am just like him!!!! I look at the endpoint and the rules are just the means, some people are just too bogged down with bereaucracy that they do not see the the real reason why they do not do things.
I remember Bama a lady I met during my houseman days saw me writing with my left hands, she said left handed people are fasdt adapting to stuffs, I believe her, meaning I could be a better person I can be powerful successful businessman.
We failed. We can't seem understand the red cluster. We did too specific. We are in the process of taking off the 'hall of shame'
"Find out the key issues you pick up consistently from your interviews, from those key issues that then u begin to extract your uncertainties" - emergent theme in te countries.
I need to do postmortem:
1. I did not quite know (starkly) how to cluster
2. I did not quite see the whole picture of latin america
3. structure the information
The blue in the axis A and B also can come from other reds?????
I just can relate to his ideas; he writes research because he doesn't know, he writes book because he doesn't know.
Parting line from RB
"The aim of education is not the acquosition of knowledge, the aim is the art of utilizing knowledge" Alfred North Whitehead, English Mathematician and Philospher (1861 -1947)
A well utilized weekend :)
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