Stronger

Haters!!

Nan-n-now-th-that don't kill me

Can only make me stronger
I need you to hurry up now
Cause I can't wait much longer
I know I got to be right now
Cause I can't get much wronger
Man I been waitin' all night now
That's how long I've been on ya

Perfection

You stand there with your chiseled abs and bulging chest

not that big, but big enough

lies the wrapping of sugar-coated skin that glisten even on a night like this, 

rain and cloudy

Face that bears resemblance to the kid every auntie dream of,

"if only he's my child"

doesn't necessarily make you mum proud,

definitely make your dad chauvinistically content,

Imagine the time with them, like lillies in a wild pond, the ponds surrounding the lilies, and lilies does not budge.

What a movement,..

Seamless with edginess that find everybodies longing only longing, never fulfilled

Never, not if ur his type

What a movement, it's only the worthy has the mean to reach for the prize,

the prize....

Do not meditate,

asshole!

Makes me wanna puke, you asshole,

I hate you not because you insulted me, but because the green mud is thicker than the hard wax that i apply on my hair,

you S.O.B!

I only wanted to have a good breath, 

Lord I ain't looking for perfection

Orange

This place is THE place to go on a festive season at this proportion, new year's day. Lot's of lesson learned. Sigh

Lesson no.1 Don't be a slut, if you wanna be a slut, love being it. So it's bit like of a two-side of a coin advice; you can choose to be a slut or not be, just do not regret being it.

Lesson no.2 You don't have to be like the members in order to BElong to a group. Just be yourself, if you think they think you do not belong there, then maybe you're not. Move away. It's not the end of the world and life goes on.

Lesson no.3 There are a few stuffs to improve on, the way you pick up boys, do not act like you're an A Beng, and second you hitting on someone, make it as discreet as possible, don;t let others know about it.  

Lesson no.4 People talk, birds fly and hippos fuck, all you need to do is to take responsibility of it. 

I am a trainwreck. I tend to sabotage my life. The case with a cute boy may be over, cause I think he caught me kissing some other guys, much less cuter than he is. Then again he did not. I could not know. 

I hate my slutty look. I should reorganize my behaviour a bit. Just to increase my chance of getting lucky.

It's so hard to find fucks these days, cause everybody seems to know everybody else.

Love of My Life

Where  in the world do i get my title to my webname? From this song.

The lady who single-handedly brought neo-soul to it's refinement starting the 90's has her best hit coming in the soundtrack to Brown Sugar. I totally adore this song.

SOak Up the Sun

Wanna dedicate this song to my fren, John whom is on a minor hiccup in his life right now(he says it's major, but i choose not to see it that way).

Life is such that we see the bad side of things most of the time. Probably it's because we were conditioned to look that way.

The sad thing about how we were brought up is that the conditioning is not alterable. What's with the cynics usually say "that's the way it is,.."

It might be true, the jury is still out, as far as I'm concerned. But I ain't gonna sit down and fret about it, moaning and groaning about how i wish a proverbial(heavily hollywoodized fantasy) angel

would come and grant me my wish out of the rut. I will act on things that I could and turn my head away from the things I couldn't.

Dear John, I hope you see the light, not at the end of a tunnel, but everywhere. There are cracks in tunnel where light seeps in like the soothing sound of mother. Look for them, crack them open, find openings there

than walking through the whole tunnel. It just so damn boring to think what a tunnel as what it is anyway.

The Night at Dome

As usual the night at Dome is filled with gays strolling in their best casual wear, hip a-swaying and eyes a-wandering. I should have taken some picture, what's with my new fancy for taking picture, recovering my old Panasonic Lumix 5MP digicam, powered by Energizer. Let me check whether I can get some photo of Dome Lot 10 in Bukit Bintang street from Google.

The place is a gay hunting place, you get to see fags and hunks alike walking pass by you, and for an opportune split second you could exert to look your best as the walk pass. Eyes asunder waiting for that right contact, if met and match, something close to miracle could happen. THe thing is 99.99% of the time, nothing happen, gays are just too self-conscious to make the extra seconds of gaze-up to make things happen. The cute ones would take brief pretending-to-glance and if they saw that someone is looking at them, they would look away, reflex, only to realize that the gaze was a cute one too, or their type, which by then already too late for the other party already lose his self-respect to regaze this cutie. Opportunity dissipate, both hate themselves so much they have to move on or risk sprouting another worry-wrinkle. "Life goes on". Oh well they say, but the thing is, it's been a repeat after repeat of the acts, like sorry episodes of HK dramas that old aunties never get bored of.

I AM BORED of it. And I will strive to disband this bad habit of self-cannibalizing, and endeavor to end it. 

My strategy is to smile at everybody who smile at me, anybody who do not smile at me, anybody at all. Making a reflex to make friends and be friendly. If I found out that I invite an ugly guy, I will learn to reject him later. This way, I am inviting everybody, and do the sieving later. I will change the stupid Malaysia culture of stupid eye gazing reflex. 

Hey! what do you know, Dome Lot 10 photo is found in Google....

The Case with boys

Sean has not return call. Seems gonna be a cold call this time. No worry. Not like I really like him anyway. Move on. Rejection no. 1056. Rejection is kinda fun sometimes. 

Then again, it's kinda wasted, especially the beer I paid for, to be just letting this go. I will persist, or at least act persist to get this guy. Will see what happen. 

Moreover I've got contingency. This other guy, is what's his name? Better keep him locked down. 

Brave by Idina Menzel

I am inspired by Idina's debut single the first time I hear it. This will be my anthem for the time being. That's why my tagline for this blog is brave.

I will not fear taking risks, I will make mistakes, just as long as I don't repeat them, just as long as I learn from them, just as long as the mistakes worth making.

My reason for placing my website name Braveloveofmylife is to combine both Idina's anthem and to shout out that this blog would be the love of my life, my passion and my inspiration, my lube when I am in solitude, to salve my lonely heart.

Sweet La Queen

Sweet La Queen

There’s a drug that is freely available and ubiquitous. It’s thirst quenching and it’s sweetness doesn’t make you feel repulse of it, not like a Coke would. You can keep on drinking your beer and not worry about getting diabetes, in fact you don;t feel worry at all after second or third beer.  It’s a gift god give to the damned life of human being on earth(in fact god gave a lot of chemical gifts, they are not available ironically due to men’s own self-regulation)

Alcohol is my recent love. My best love. I don’t want to meander too much with the bounty of alcohol but I just want to express my deepest thanks to the thing that may have very much left unappreciated amid festive times like this. Thank you alcohol.

So much for a first article.

Met two cuties, Shawn and another one not sure what’s his name. Likelihood to fuck Shawn is low, likelihood to fuck whats-his-name is high. Just need some time. Just in case I forget, his number is xxxxxxxxxx. Good night to him and see what I can do with my remainder holidays.

Christmas album by Josh Groban is an album made in heaven. It’s inevitable, a christmas album by Josh Groban is an album that must be made, left only question is when? And once it made, it is angelic, its so good u wonder y other even bother to make a christmas album as well. It has already sold more than 3 million units, in just less than 3 months, a record of sort. Before long it would surpass Mariah Carey’s 5 million unit Christmas album which she released more than 10 years ago. She took 10 years to sell that many. Josh will probably take much less than that.

When I see advert with models strapped with timepieces, I suppose to see impressivity, I do not. Is there a gap to my observation? Why I can’t see astoundingly as I always immediately spot good watch in real life? Odd. Odd indeed.

Welcome To My Page

Welcome to my page. If there is one page to describe this page, it is GAY. I will start my pre-new year’s day resolution to write a blog. I’ve written very successful blog before, but due to diversion, I had stopped and even forgot the site of the blog. I guess it will be forever lost in my memory. 

So today is going to be the biggest day of my life cause I am starting a new life resolution. It just so happen to be a near-new-years day resolution but this time I am going to guarantee a committed, consistent and passionate writing of my life and rants and bores as well. 

First let me list down the list of resolution I have:

1. I will not watch porn. Haha

2. I will live life to the full, aka I will be and try to be happy all the time, all seconds!

3. I will strive to improve myself in writing, public speaking, my marketing job, my creative side

4. I will get myself a bf and commit to him the rest of my life

5. I will write this blog as often as I can, at least once a day, but never less than once a week, of course unless I travel.

6. I will put pictures of my life, intelectualize my life, rant about people, talking shit about nothing at all, and make the best out of life.

7. I will live in luxury and clear off the clutters

8. I will forever be energetic

9. I had and will always dare to try new things, except for chems, which I know will spoil my brain

10. I will dare to do anything, to follow my heart

11. I am not looking for people to like me, i am looking for what is right. It’s not like I like to hurt people. That’s not me. It’s just that i need to be assertive in life, and chart my own course, fall on my own cliffs.