I'll do whatever it takes to transform myself

OK, let's start the day with a fresh new way of doing things.

Doing well so far

I did well, just a slight moment I almost reach my boiling point. I realise I really hate being contraindicated, also worse I hate contraindicate people. And when I do, however the intention is noble I always manage to betray a whiff of resented look when I try to talk about it.

I am definitely in trouble and has got issue.

I must settle this as soon as I can.

I will do whatever it takes.

Just listen, and I might learn more then

Be a public Communicator

I want to be a public communicator,

Tips are:

1. Do for good, rubbing your ego does not work
2. find your style and genius, work on what you have

"Public speaking is not a business, a mean to business, you gotta have something to sell" I have sales and marketing skills

Emotionally engage - there are nine emotions

If you engage an audience and during your speech you made a mistake, they will still forgive you, including the judges. If you dun engage, they will look for your mistake and they will not forgive you!!!

Neurosemantic people - mismatcher, think opposite of what people think, if you're not where got creatvity?

Whenever u talk, people always disagree with you, it's good, you find new ways, you think from other angle.

I was the changed TM, only improve one or two things, looking for silver bullet answers. "there's no silver bullet answer"

Transformed people learn more, focus on many outcome, how to win, how to stand, how to write a winning speech.

I will be the transformed Toastmaster.

Fight in your life. Sacrifice..... Sounds like hard to do.

" I prepare speech every half hour"!!!! 1000 times prepare.

"it's not me, my body is nervous"

I need to clear my garbage, I can't move on if I do not clear this garbage I have with my family members.

When you go for public speaking, make sure the right hole of your nose is opened.

If you take part in america, they will will look at speakers response. Japanese judges will look at the audience response. - Know your audience.

Azmi Pisang Goreng - they just cut into three and more crispy

Benta Kaya -


Noza Interiors - sunway hotel, USD1 buy, but sell Rm28 sell

Audience like to be trained - good things u must share.

Find a higher purpose - unconditional help ,altruistic help.

Turkey Story - a prince who things he's a turkey. Changed him by going with him.

Become silly, you are able to keep your ego aside.

Give yourself a nickname - SUN

Why people arrange slippers when they commit suicide?

Pathologist story, 6 to 5th floor, 16th floor to 5th floor,

Lim Keng Yaik, sorry if i talk to you my saliva fall on you.

Std 1 story -

Audience like to be persuaded, selling a loan,

Sales - SPIN method. S- situatioon, p-problem, i-implication n- needs payoff

Getting a date -

Clown museum -

how to write humour - charlie chaplin - getting in trouble,

n=angry, frigtened, and worry - comedy from issues that made u those.

reframe

other humour speeches - superiority ,incongruity, ambivalence,

What's ur style?

1, are you a story teller?- harith iskandar

2. topical - tells the latest issue

3. character comedian -

4. prop comedian - (i usually need prob) -

5. gimmicks

6. phisical

7. impressionist (can cry anytime)

8. improvisionist

why audience didn laugh

1. dun try to imitate
2. wrong subject for wrong crowd
3. honesty

9 emotionsm anger,sad, fear, disgust, lvoe joy wonder and courage, peace. Relate to audience? must hit one of them in the top

Do 20 free shows.

how to get materials?

only way to be disconnected when you are judgemental, create noise, there is no silence "carry the silence" buddha.

Everything happen for a reason, stop judging

You have to be transformed in order to change. I must be transformed.

There must be a Zinger. Diabetes - u will never starve

Hook, Pace & Lead

Log is such a messy presenter.

Modelling on the neurological level - meet your own god and he'll tell you "i told u so"

Trance - lime or lemon, "everyword is alive, u cut it it bleeds" Lord Byron.

who you benchmark with?

Roger Dobson - 5 ways of telling jokes, practice

Beliefs - arrogant "yes, so what?"

Altruistic.

Neurosemantic test - visual or emotional person?

The Gestalt Dimension

Get a higher purpose in life- what is your higher purpose? TO ENRICH PEOPLE!!! TO ENHANCE LIVES!!!

What is my style anyway? hmmm, possibly I an not a serious person.

EBE Meeting

Some people are extra sensitive, i mean it's the maturity matters,

I was just trying to manage time as optimal as possible.

Not quite sure what that guy wants, he said we need to rush, i dun think he see himself as consistent. People are putting so much efforts here. C'mon the least you could do is to do home work already. Plus u said u understand visually, yet you are angry when you feel left out.

And the people here are just so stupid, just because I wanna do timeline discussion he calls it forecasting. I am not sure he knows what he's saying. FOr a start, they are all falter in the first discussion.

I think there are a lot ego bruised here. They just could not 'see' the works here.

Some people have the set of ideas of who they want to listen to. Some listen to senior like listening to Jesus summons. Some do not like to open their mind.

OK, great job, I let him take the lead, He's that type so similar to me, he needs to take the lead in order to stay on top of his game. So let him be, as I am already on top of my game.

SO he's happy and I am a bit bruised but I am happy because I could control my ego. Yay. Big brownie point. I need to reward myself for this.

MBA on Finance

In a way working for salary does not make sense because of te rate of promotion ur getting does not goes well with the inflation rate in malaysia. Better open a business.

I am not feeling well, compounded by my headache in this class.

MBA on Financial Management

This Indian looking guy with the Queen Slang is delivering this lecture.

Got a bit confused with the rights issue topic.

Theoretical Rights Issue Price
Cum-right price
Ex-right price
Value of Rights

If I have RM3 price of 1000 share. and it get rights for 1 for 4 at RM2

I need to pay RM2 for 25o share. I paid RM500.

My final wealth is RM2.8 x 1250 = RM3500.

If I have RM3 price of 1000 share and it get rights for 1 for 4 at RM2

Instead I sell all the rights at RM.80 (that's the max i could sell anyway) - I got RM.8 x 250 = RM200. My final wealth is RM2.8 x 1000 + 200 = RM3000

If I don't do anything the price will end up at RM2.8, and my wealth goes down from RM3000 to RM2800.

If I sell half of my rights and exercise the other half
I pay RM2 x 125 = RM250
I got RM.8 x125 = RM200
My final weatlh is 1125x2.8 +200 = RM3350???

Those are wrong answers!!! What's wrong with my understanding here.

Liar Liar

I am good at discerning, I am bad at articulating, I hate liars, and I hate it when I lie. I can't seemto find the motivation to work on my thesis, it's defintely important.

I must start my business, I do not want to toe the line again!! I am sick and tired of people who look at me like i am incapable. Fuck you FD.

What's wrong with you? What's wrong with me?

Seriously it's either I have a third eye at the top of my forehead that I get you to see me like I am not worth a serious position in your mind.

I might not be good enough but I love to learn, I might be arrogant but I need to have this in order for me to be good. SO drop it already!

I do not know what and how I can make people love me,I think I am nice for the fact that I am loved. I need to be happy with myself but I can't I can't I always have issue. I need to not have issues cause I need to get on with my stupid existence, and be better.

I always need to take few steps back. Always! It sucks.

What's your first day going to be in your new company?

First day in my new company; I will strive to understand the system, the people, and the process.

I will understand my product, and marketing plan. Follow closely with my manager. Lot'sa consultation.

Making itinerary plans for more work and visits. Damnit i hate this life.

Toe The Line

I hate it when I have to toe the line.I hate it when I am not appreciated. I hate it when I am different from dealing with a customer and dealing with someone important. I do not know why and how I can subconsciously deal with them. Always with customers greatly and with employers badly.

I hate it when I need to be not myself. I hate it when I am not appreciated and I hate it when I begin to feel that I am not good enough. WTF

I am good, but not good enough, I can't work under stress, I can't seem to bring strong inspiration to people. But I guess I did, and I am doing it sometimes, it's just about how I deal with things. I must have a system to deal with it. I am sure there's such system. But what is it?

Since coming up with this website I wonder I have changed? Just now I talked to my headhunter and I was all boastful about how good I am and how I prove it and all. I mean, I usually do not know how to deal with this. I need to speak clearly, I need to articulate, i need to deal everyone like my customers.

I hate it that a company, one has to has great experience with his or her boss in order to get promotion. I simply puke at the thought of remaining in the rat race!! I mean I can do so much better with my level of work I am putting here.

I am a great sales person

only when i am not in pressure i guess? Or only I think I am seen as more superior.

Today my gard was dwn, I should have taken off my glass. hmmmm

What's wrong with some people?

What's wrong with some people? Enjoying the fall of others, you know that S is such a bitch that she is so fake in her compliments, and when it comes to the real thing, she withhold from complimenting. I mean I dun need that compliment, I know myself that much to not need something like that.

I know how much I am worth and all those bitches don't see it, it's their loss, in fact it's my win, I know now I can do much better than this. I will go the distance to earn million dollar by 35 instead of trying to achieve MM position by that age. (Thanks to her actually that I got this solution, see, most people who are jealous of me are the one who give me the best opportunity) Good bye Janitors, I am going to sell strawberries. Get urself the emails of conformity, and become janitors the rest of your life.

Temper! It's true I am impatient, everybody is impatient, look at her look at the losers, all are impatient, it's what they are impatient of, what's their trigger factor.

Some blow their top when they are being scolded, some blow their top when they do not know stuffs, and being bombarded, and some blow their top because they are being humiliated. I do not blow my top because of those!!! Seriously!! I blow my top when I am with stupid people and those stupid people drag me down. And most of the time, stupid people exist around me. How can I NOT blow my top often??!!!

Seriously these people here are seriously retarded. Seriously!!!!

MBA on EBE with RB Day 2

It's 9.07am, we are late as always, the class is about to begin...

I was thinking just now when I was sharing my MM assignment with Daniel, I was reserved in sharing my MM stuffs with him, in front of others, Like do i really need to? It made me look like a crooks, distrustful, this type of behavior is the one that made me a hateful person. I need to take note.

Plus I told myself I need to fix my fundamental, like the sheets in the wall that do not hold itself unlike the others, I was the one who paste the sticko. It tells me something.

Yet, why must I worry about this anyway? Y must I think about how others gonna think about me? It was never a hard and fast rule. It was never straigtforward, it was always vague. I just have to believe in myself, that whatever i do is right.

At the end of the day i want to achieve success that are as good if not better than others. That's my main fundamental flaw in my life :(

Back to class...

I think I am going to learn chinese language with the ppstream.com, entertainment speeds up learning....

I think in order for me to really appreciate this course is to think like a novelist. I still need to know the basic facts about Latin America, but at the same time i could fabricate stories. I will open my eyes and wll not boil over today. I promise, or I'll pay RM100 this time.

I can control myself but i need to remind myself.

I always believe I am smarter than others, now I am redeemed, thanks to my exoursemate humility to ask this question.

Taking off my specs seem to work, I am more focused on my thinking rather being influenced by the outer world. I guess i do not have a boundary to protect myself from the outside world

See I asked the question before even it was raised and done, am i not smart and think ahead of stuffs? See I really smart.

So far so good, my team work still good, see I am a teamplayer!! C'mon, fuck the loser who do not think so.

"Maybe I will understand better if you have express it differently" this is the line came out by RB when the class came out with some question that is totally out in inexplicable. Another of saying "I dun think u understand what you do, and better get your baisc right pls" Riles me up u know!!

I am struggling with coming out the red paper. Hmmm, I think I might have not enough articulation on it. WOuld it mean that I might be too general in my clustering? But I would come out with hundreds of clusters!! Hmmm. Let me think.

I think my red paper are too specific and I am not telling enough stories. We are not general enough in the stories. The way I did was a bit shallow. I need to tell more stories.

I can tell RB is an antiestablishment, he is for scotland independence, he's story about security in 10pm, "I can imagine a U without security officer, can u imagine a U without academy?", He probably get this U because he's all about endpoint, I am just like him.

"the imam with cat, daily imam bring cat and tie to post before "

"you need to keep asking question of what purpose of the business because of memory loss"

I am just like him!!!! I look at the endpoint and the rules are just the means, some people are just too bogged down with bereaucracy that they do not see the the real reason why they do not do things.

I remember Bama a lady I met during my houseman days saw me writing with my left hands, she said left handed people are fasdt adapting to stuffs, I believe her, meaning I could be a better person I can be powerful successful businessman.

We failed. We can't seem understand the red cluster. We did too specific. We are in the process of taking off the 'hall of shame'

"Find out the key issues you pick up consistently from your interviews, from those key issues that then u begin to extract your uncertainties" - emergent theme in te countries.

I need to do postmortem:

1. I did not quite know (starkly) how to cluster
2. I did not quite see the whole picture of latin america
3. structure the information

The blue in the axis A and B also can come from other reds?????

I just can relate to his ideas; he writes research because he doesn't know, he writes book because he doesn't know.

Parting line from RB

"The aim of education is not the acquosition of knowledge, the aim is the art of utilizing knowledge" Alfred North Whitehead, English Mathematician and Philospher (1861 -1947)

A well utilized weekend :)

MBA on EBE Part 4

I failed again and again to be aware of my falings, and that i do not know a lot, and i need to push myself, luckily I manage to rebound faster, and I am learning effortlessly. Only struggle is I may not be able to see more than just macro level. I have to look back at Malaysia to discover more.

I am very passionate about improving myself at this but why is it I can't seem to think about asking questions? Why can't I create more questions.

And why do i feel so hot?

I read a lot and all, Y can't I seem to able to see more.

The power of this uncertainty making strong existing knowledge about the region.

I hate it when I have to elevate my voice when i was trying to highlight my pov. It's because of the room temperature, the inability to express, the temper, the stupid opposition. Remember ! Rm50.
NOw it's over, I need to clam down :(

MBA on EBE with RB part 3

He claimed that people in the older days have longer lasting publication because they are well thought of before writing. Imagine the level of preparation and avoidance of mistake needs to be in the authors then because if they make mistake there's no turning back.

We take it for granted that a mistaken sentence can be wiped off in seconds and recorrect millions of time, provided we have time. But I do not agree that the quality of publication is higher, although I do not have good example, as he discredit the Sixth Sense book as a low qualiy book.

It's true Sixth Sense is sa dry and maybe perhaps fail to inspire but I do not think it should be inferior to others as you will a lot of chance to re-edit your papers as much as you think to prepare your paper.

Not for me tho, I shy away from rereading coz i have lethargic problem with reading my own stuffs again. I must try to get rid of this bad habit. I must stick with things of my passion. Passion is lost when it becomes work.

MBA on EBE with RB

I was late, gotta get home to get my power cable, unfortunately, I missed some of the interesting lecture.

Learned- relevate - connect things together (sometimes seemingly unrelated) to elevate into meaningful scenario

Ross Ashby -Law of Requisite Variety (1983)- you have to think creatively or complexly in order to manage complex stuffs

As I perceive myself clever and smart, I became over my head, my head swelled, and I became agitated easily by the people, I became intolerant to less superior ideas, this may cause my vicious problem.

This same colleague who said "unwelcome" remark claimed that SIngapore lifesyle cost is the same with Malaysia!! I really seriously doubt so. C'mon!! Look at the financial data!! She said only housing is expensive, that's because it's starkly out there, its visible, live a life a Singaporean and then you will know.

I am actually doing an experiment, if I get to be online all the time, would i find more opportunities?

He's a Scottish citizen! Wow, interesting.

Scenario is hypothetical future, qualitative vs quantitative? Use quantitative to describe qualitative description.

Find red cross of red crescent cause they have more information. Go for the underground account.

I mean life and theory should be simple and easy to understand, y are people so like to think complicately in terms of learning, interms of thinking yes, but learning, y so complicated? People are so pretentiously abstract sometimes, the ignorant chinese.

The time will start as we will work our ass off to offend each other whether we like it or not, or intentionally or not.

I want to ask again, other than overlooking the fact that I failed to plan my dates for the training, what else is wrong?

MBA class on EBE by Mr RB part 2

George Soros on Nov 2 says that the second real-estate crahs will be around the corner in its 'terrific'!.

I think the US president knows a lot of things but does not wanna reveal.

Unemployment has improved from 10.2% to 10%.

If you want to undergo a paradigm shift you have to go through a crisis of life, your believe is shaken to the core, existential angst! I had 3 crisis in 3 years?!! Am i in trouble? Or am I become better?


Alvin Toffler(3rd most influential person after Bill Gates and Peter Drucker)- you as manager must think the unthinkable!To think out of the box you have to ask "Where is the box?"

"If U do not think, no hope for society"

We are the ones who helps to raise the std, but we are not popular.

"these are the perosn who are always unwelcome" - from class

"I always pay the price, that's why i have to be exiled" - RB, seriously, is it because I am rebelling tis because society does not allow?, I will make change

"we all collude to maintain thie paradigm"

"the more successful u r the more vulnerable" you are trapped in this cycle

"success leads to failure, Karl Marx mentioned about this, Das Capital has resurgent of sales

The difference between a football watching in tv and stadium is that in tv you are controlled by the camera, you dun have "corner of the eye knowing", the anticipation of it all

He uses Hans Holbein painting to thing from the corner of the eye.
"The more focus you are the more blindsided you can be", hey I have this corner eye skill here right?

Schizophrenic can't see possibilities, the more we pursue capitalism the more schizophrenic we become. RB highlighted the book A Thousand Plateurs: Capitalism and Schizophrenia, that highlighted people tendency to focus too much on capitalism and its benefit, that it is the only way around for the betterment of the world, that people do not see the pitfall from it, that capitalism is the root of the turbulent financial crisis.

The Brent Spar affair- Shell who pride themselves with the Sixth Sense book, but they did not anticipate the Brent Spar 1995, the only explanation to this is that they do not see this?

I do not know why I have Debbie Gibson's For Better or Worse in my brain.

Video by Paul Krugman? Well nobody's perfect, old people still cant manage video.

Financial History in 12 th century- The Ripple Effect of the Subprime Mortgages in an interconnected world.

Starts with roman numerical in Italy 12th century, backward europe needed to be imported. Fibonacci entered- sequence mimic the property of nature. Hindu were better in making calculation. So Fibonacci made numerical changes.

Why shylokc recur again and again? Shylock could be a jew. For christian, lending money of interest was a sin. Rate is very high by Jew, the loan shark. Lenders decided to become bigger and more powerful, and invented banks. The Medici family, 3 became pope, MaChiavelli is also a Medici. they were the forex dealers.

Many medici chargeCame Giovanni Medici who made accounting that got Medici off the antiUsury law. People put moeny and were rewarded with risk related. NO sin to that. Interest was dicreetly concealed. Money lending become banking.

The basis of world today is based on ecnonomic failure.Memphis example. brandkcupties is as common as liberty of life etc in USA

Brancupt might be billionaire, seems to be so with America, they were given chances compared to UK where brankrupt is jailed.

Monoply is invented 1903 to expose the real estate agents unscrupulous actvities. "it's smart o lend properties ,adn it's smarter to lend people, house can't run away"

There's where subprime occur, "safe as houses"?


Before teh recession in 1918, only 2/5 population own property, after 1918, employee layoff causes revision of communism, FDR decided to form Fannie Mae to help popultion own propeties. Properties market were formed. But not everyone is given the properties. the african american. They were uncredit-worthy. Prime and subprime were created.

NO asset, no job, - ninja loan

How come u know they will default u still sell? = Securittion - repackage it for otherers.

how did chinese crisis-free? investment in form of factory less liquid, u can get away from it, now china lend money to america.

Finance market is not exact science, that's y gloabalization is vulnerable to this.

MBA class on by Mr RB

Mr RB is a very passionate, and nice lecturer, he has got a nice aura to it, i like the way he teaches, injecting humor in his talks. Whilst talking i left out in the humor i must pay attention.

This guy does golf 4 days in a week, and only attend U one day!! because he knows he's good, doing a lot of research

Looking at STEEP of itself is not enough, end scenarios should entails a anything, anything not specifically one categories, it starts us off, not to end us with.

I personally think Malaysian are mainly comprise of people who can't think, it's not an insult, it's a frustration.

THis is the time for us to be 'wild' in our thinking, 'wild but plausible' - RB

The way i look at this EBE, I will not study and classify things, I am open minded and not trying to take all ideas from everyone spick and span.

RB generally scorn at the book Sixth Sense not of its ideas and intelligence but at its delivery. It was dry and unappealing to unintellectual minds. He instead recommends book by Peter Swartz " The Art of Long View" which writes along the line of the Sixth Sense but with more interesting read. Peter Swartz summarize scenario planning in steps below:

Step One: Identify the Focal Issue or Decision (e.g. "Shall we increase, reduce, or eliminate direct mail promotions?")

Step Two: List the Key Micro-Factors Relevant to that Issue or Decision (e.g. budget, nature of offer, mailing list, response rate)

Step Three: List the Key Macro-Driving Forces (e.g. competition initiatives, demographics, national economy)

Step Four: Cross-Rank Factors and Forces in Terms of Importance and Uncertainty (i.e. priorities and relative predictability)

Step Five: Select Scenario Logic (i.e. formulate a single-axis spectrum, dual-axis matrix, or three-axis multiple within which to organize Factors and Forces for up to three scenarios)

Step Six: Flesh out Scenarios (in as much detail as possible)

Step Seven: Identify Probable Implications ("What if?")

Step Eight: Select Leading Indicators and Signposts (to identify which scenario now seems most probable)

What makes a thinker thinker?

George Soros was a student to Sir Karl Popper. Go to ft.com to hear Soros's lecturers.

what differentiate a fake and a genuine thinker?

At least he gave disclaimer before telling humor.

Now he talking bout Samsung founder, Lee Byung Chull, every street is paved with gold, everywhere i go I see business opportunities.

3M stands for Minnesota Mineral and Mining - POST-IT is created from failure.

RB is very inspiring

I think I live a life with many failures, many crisis in my life, but I pulled through, sometime i want to die, but i got strong this time because of my friends, and my love. will i pull through without them?

Black Swan(The Impact of the Highly Improbable) Nicholas Naseem Khalid, danger of linear thinking, and falsification(all it takes one idea of different to disconfirm) Bertram Russell's Turkey story.
Black Swan talks about people inherent inability to ignore things that they do not know, generalizing ideas that almost always broken into inconsequences. We never know Google could be created, we thought 1000 white swans that we see will never eventually find a black swan. This book teaches you how to get rid of this stupid tendencies, cause that's where growth and innovation and the next millionaire like myself would be created.

OSK made money, intitutional trading during the financial crisis.

Some people i talked to have not even started their MM assignment???A and S

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