Several problems in my life

The are two main problems I will focus upon, paid full attention at, and 

1. Externally motivated

2. Procrastinate the job while work hard on the non-job

3. Street-smart lesson needs to be postponed

4. The crumbling of my social circle.

Let me take the bull by the horn, sow the seed by the spot, or aim the bow at the bullseye;

1. Being externally motivated; feeling so down when there seems to be no one express their interest at you. Or there seems to be no one that are willing to give  you the compliments that you need, most likely because I am just not good enough in those things I've done lately. But most of the times, I am either not good enough or too different from their feeble mindset to comprehend. But I am such a wreck when such a thing did not come about when I needed it.

2. Procrastinate the job; not wanting to take the bulls by the horn, tend to delay the real job work with excuses that other less important works need to be done first, and find excuses from the lamest reason, like my shoulder pain, distended stomach, prevents me from performing at my best in writing my assignment speech, hence prevents me from writing it altogether.

3. The crumbling of my social circle; People are just so jealous of me. Only the ones strong enough remains in my social circle. I put the rest as bunch of coward little hypocritical small people(in chinese small people means jealous backstabbing bitches), which seriously worth none of my concern for them. I got to expend my social circle and find new people to go out with. The real friends, whom I am comfortable with. Or maybe I do not really need a social circle, what I need is the right direction for my career path. The social circle tends to be people whom I have light moments with. And times like these does not allow much light moments, I will sparringly spend such wasteful time.

4. Lack of those street-smart lessons due to lack of monetary. 

Strategy:

1. External motivation?

2. Procrastination

3. Social circle

4. Street-smart lesson

Herewith I found some non-direct solutions or rather next-steps I need to do in my life;

1. Embrace pain- sit straight even though it is tiring, just type away even the shoulders are sore, just do it even if you think the extent of impossibilities, 

2. Discipline- 

3. Break away the egos- talk to strangers, stop making assumptions about people, love people for who they are, some friends are worth it and some acquaintances are dispensable, be kind to people, not necessarily nice to people, being ruthless is the best lesson for them sometime