I know that this thing will come back to haunt me

I do realize that whatever I did and whatever I didn't do will always come back to haunt me.

I'll do better to move to some place that no one knows me. My name in the world is probably messed up. Some will see me as a messed up arrogant bitch. Others will see me as this passionate person who wants nothing but an altruistic life.

I can only do whatever I can control now. My future. My present position. My own peace of mind. I do not bother what others think of me. I only bother about what I think of myself.

I will stay positive.

At least I know I am not evil even to myself.

I will stop fretting but start thinking about damage control.