Here we go.....

I will attempt again to write consistently my blog. This time is different. I have no safety net. I will fail badly and climb from scratch again if all else fail. I will not even think about failing.

This is not easy. This is hard. This needs to be done right!!

Damn I am scared, I am scared to death when I allow the floodgate of doubts and the picture of failing in my mind. But I must remind myself that this should NOT BE ABOUT ME ONLY! This SHOULD NOT BE ABOUT MY REPUTATION. THIS SHOULD NOT BE ABOUT MY 'FACE'. This is scary.

I will attempt right this time.

One of the problem I have is that I might not have enough money to sustain for long enough. If only I have millions of dollars, I will plunge in deep and not afraid of anything. But I do not have millions, I do not have more than 20k. I have only a little bit of money!! I am not sure I can sustain this. Worse come to worse I will have to sell my condominium. But I will not lose head and diverted by this.

I have live long enough and work long enough to prepare for this. I have. If I do not start now, I will not be able to start at all. Life will be back to normal. I promise that I will work hard till end 2011. WOrk so hard that I will be able to determine my future for good. My destiny will be determined by now. I will not just launder with a SPM position. There's just so much to lose to continue with this work. Too much to lose. This time is different. This is it!!!

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