Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Idea: Do the fear thing and see how it fades

Ever done something u've always thought u're terrified at and eventually, sometime later that the fear was unfounded, or even u began to forget why you fear that something?

I did, I used to fear the most inconspicious stuffs. I had this believe that wearing red tie is a sign of campiness, that you are announcing to the world that you're gay.( which I am but i try to be discreet in this harsh homophobic society, sob sob). I didn;t touch this red tie I bought and thought of wearing because my feng shui master suggested so. 

I finally got the gut to wear it and not realising much, there is only one person commented about the striking color. Nobody else mentioned nor put an eye on  my supposedly loud tie. So yes, I've been wearing the red tie ever since and bought some more new ones without fear or prejudice.

I also fear public speaking. THe worse part was the time just before i went up the stage. But once you get used to it, you realize the fear is silly. Everybody is just as fearful as you if they go onstage. 

Yes I still have this stage fright, being on stage still gives me the worst time of my life, butterfly in my stomach, forgoting words, and fast heartbeat. But i believe i will get rid of it once and for all one day. Just as long as I do many enough.

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