Death

If I were to die tomorrow, at that very second of my last breath, the moment of serious pain, severe trauma, fraction of a second before the moment of tactile gone, what would I be thinking?
Would I think of the things I did not do? Would I wish that that moment did not happen? Would I regret the steps that lead to this demise of me? or would I wished I would have bought myself a Bravia and Xbox 360?

I know a couple of things for sure. That spiritually, my life is meaningless, as spiritual life does not exist to me. Although it could be possible that as I leave this world, I might probably still exist, in non-exist existence, plain that is in the world, but just not there. It's very hard to articulate this, but it might just be possible. This I scare most.

What would a non-exist life be? A interexisting world between the described world of the dead and world of the lived. Do I need to breath? Can I move my limbs? Do I have movable 'parts'? Does 'soul' exist out of human body? I do not want touch nor bother about the ghost world as that would be even more hard to describe.

But I need to discover this possible post-death moment, that past reported encounter prove the very least possibilities of it, however mute. It can't be that encounters are made up. Yet, lack of scientific recognition among the I would call dependably sane and reliable people does not seem to justify the discussion that it could even exist. Is it that they do not dare to explain the inexplicable plain of metaphysics? Or is it just irrefutably bunkum and wrong? Followed by persistent dubious and highly entertaining sighting reports, which serves inadvertently or not to hold it just above water. Or could it be just the truth?